Annoyed

So, I haven't written in a while. I'm not sure what exactly I'm allowed to write about stuff going on on post buy I can say that I am extremely annoyed because the receptionist a the civillian dentist gave me the wrong address for my follow up appointment so when I got there I had to come straight back and it was rescheduled to Monday. I'm glad I won't have to go to PT on Monday but I'm worried I may fail my next pt test as I haven't done a pushup in many weeks since I've had my teeth out. I really don't want to have to go to PT at five in the morning. I suppose I should do some pushups in my room for practice.

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Goff teeff pulled

Got my wisdom teeth pulled out today. My whole mouth I still totally numb even though it's been six hours. I hope it goes away soon as it's awfully difficult to eat or taste with a numb mouth. I really wish I had some jue's Chinese food right now. Not that I would be able to eat it but it sure would be nice to smell. I get to miss class for the next couple days as well. Yay. I hate English grammar anyway. I was an English literature major. I do not know what a participle is or how it dangles. I had a hard enough time with direct and indirect objects on the test. Lame. Anyway, my cousin sent me some Irn Bru for Christmas so I would like to say thank you, I'll just have to write a card or find him on facebook or something. At least I have some time to read now.

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Ice Cream

So, I ha to go to the dentist today. The bad news is I only had one cavity. The other bad news is I have to get my wisdom teeth yanked out on wednesday. Yippie! Also, I spent too much money on a new bed set for my room and got a huge ice cream sundae that will probably rot my teeth even worse. It got a lttle squished in transit but it's still pretty.


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Good News Bad News

So the bad news is that I failed my push-up test today and almost started crying right there on the track field. The good news is that the sergeant gave me a second chance to do the test after everyone else left and I passed. I still need to do a lot more work and have to stay after regular PT tomorrow and go to a Saturday PT but that's all right because I get to phase up tomorrow and that makes it worth it. I guess even though my body was touching the ground my hands were in the wrong spot so my elbows weren't breaking ninety degrees the first time around. I've also been having some trouble accessing my pay stub info online but hopefully I'll be able to straighten it out tomorrow. I get to go to the dentist tomorrow too. I really hope I'll be able to walk with the other couple people who are going because I know I will get so lost by myself and wind up late. I'm going to try getting in a shower tonight before we have to start cleaning (they assigned me the bathroom, yay!).

Emotion

This is my "I wish I was allowed to have an emotion so I could cry my eyes out" post. I just found out I'm not allowed to phase up until I pass that PT test tomorrow. This means that while my roommate and all those people in our group all got to decorate their rooms or half of rooms and go of base and wear regular clothes and have their phones and iPods on them outside the dorm room I got to sit there in my uniform not going anywhere and eat dinner by myself. Not to mention that every time I try to do eighteen pushups I can never manage to do them. I keep collapsing at ten or twelve or fourteen or having half of them not count cuz I couldn't go low enough. G keeps saying not to worry and have more confidence and moping won't help me but life for me pretty much sucks right now and all I really want to do is have that good long thirty minute cry I've been wanting since the first week of BMT when we got told we weren't allowed to have emotions. I can see why this place has so many suicides/suicide attempts, keeping this much emotion bottled up can't be good for a person's mental health. I think that regardless of whether or not I pass the test tomorrow I'm going to set aside some time for a good cry just to get it out of my system. I'd be crying right now but my roommate's here and she'd just tell me not to be a whimp which would be hypocritical as she just had a huge cry yesterday after breaking up with her boyfriend over the phone. Of course this means it must be true what they say, that "If the world didn't suck we'd all fall off". It's nice not to go floating off into space but I feel like a little less gravity might go a long way towards helping me with my pushups. I'll just have to say a prayer for tomorrow and hope for the best. I probably wouldn't have had any fun going to the mall anyway.

- Posted from my iPhone.