Iffy abs Biffy

I wrote another poem about fairies called The Tale of Iffy and Biffy. Read it here: http://www.fifteenminutesoffiction.com/user/helen/2011/the_tale_of_iffy_and_bifft.asp

Or here: http://whitefoxsilvercrow.blogspot.com/2011/10/tale-of-iffy-and-biffy.html

High-Velocity Lead

So, I wrote a poem called High-Velocity Lead or The Cowboy's Lament about a cowboy who was up in the woods checking the trap-line when something bad happened. It's actually loosely inspired by something my dad always says about how if the end of the world were to come instead of investing in silver or gold he would invest in high-velocity lead. The poem can be read over at White Fox: Silver Crow or on my page at fifteen minutes of fiction. Enjoy! Also, hi to my new follower. I feel I should mention that I tried to post last week but for some reason it didn't go through. The gist was I decided to keep a real in a book diary so I can whine about the military without getting in trouble for putting stuff online. In other words, don't be surprised if I post even less often than I do already.

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So, I met a nice guy last weekend. We just spent the day hanging out in town, playing frisbee on the beach and watching a movie. We had our portrait drawn by a street artist. It has a little heart with our names in and everything. He bought me a fluffy pink kitty cat. He told me he really liked me. There's supposed to be a bonfire party at the beach tomorrow so we might go together. It should be fun.

- Posted from my iPhone.

Update

Update, those other people I met turned out not to want to hang out with me either. My life is sucky again. On the bright side the Russian dance team did well on language day. I have a video but don't know how to post it yet. I spent all last weekend holed up in my room watching farscape on netflix. Nobody wanted to hang out with me and I had a huge craving for green and orange gummy worms. This weekend we have Saturday formation. That's alright though, nobody would want to do anything with me on Saturday anyway. At least this way people will be forced to stand near me. It's not much but it's a start (not).

- Posted from my iPhone.

Bust

So, that guy I hung out with on the beach turned out to be a bust. After we went to the movie he never returned any of my calls or texts. I spent last weekend by myself. I calle my mom and maunta and cried on the phone for an hour before deciding to walk into town alone and buy fifty dollars worth of books at the borders store. I spent the rest of the weekend reading. The rest of the week was the same in class. America killed osama. Yay for that I guess. I have a feeling I'd be way more excited about that if there weren't like a hundred more bad guys waiting to take his place. I got my costume for dance team today. Rehearsals are coming along quite well. I got a terrible sun burn last week and it snowed six inches back home. I had to move to a new room today in the fat away building so now my walk to class and formation in the morning is gonna suck. I went tithe hobson tonight at met a couple of nice people who've been here almost a year already so I feel glad and sad. Glad I finally met some nice people but sad they'll be leaving so soon. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually have someone to hang out with.

- Posted from my iPhone.

New Lucky Charm

So, the week before was same old same old, classes, homework, went to town with J.H. and bought shoes. This week started out a bust: school, testss, homework, and nobody wanted to do anything with me on Friday night and the Internet in our room was still broken. I was sitting in the dark by myself and feeling depressed to I went to the post store and window shopped for a couple hours before deciding to buy a ring from the ring lady who has a Jewelery stand there every couple days. Then I went back to my room and moped before crappy Internet and hunger forced me to go to the hobson (the hangout on post that serves pizza and beer and ha wireless Internet). I sat by myself and watched a movie on the netflix on my iPad. Then I got hungry so I wondered into the cafe area where all the people I knew were on their fifth drink and loopy as all get out, the girls ha mustaches and the guys had unibrows. It was weird.

I ate some pizza and was just starting to think about leaving when this guy from across the room joined our group and we started talking an drawing horrible maps of America and Asia on a greassy paper plate. Then we decided to go for a walk and talk and wound up walking down the hill off post to the beach. By then it was past midnight and I suggested we start a bonfire. We didn't have any matches or firewood but I said if we just walk down the beach we can find some wood and steal someo else's fire. We found. Ton of firewood first thing from someone's old bonfire and a little ways further down someone ha dugg a firepit in the sand and it still ha coals in it. He wa Leary about being able to start a fire but I said all you do with coals is throw on some kindling and blow on them and you get instant fire. So that's what it did. I started that bonfire in three seconds flat. It was really impressive. Not so impressive was grabbing that leftover firewood in the dark without realizing it was covered in soot. My shirt got filthy. I tried to wash my hands in the ocean but this wave came and my shoes got full of water.

I also found some girl's phone that she'd come back looking for as soon as she asks if I'd seen it. So then Z and I spent three hours talking in front of the fire and he asked me to go to a movie with him the next day (which is today). On the way back to post some random car pulle over and asked I we needed a ride. Turns out it was the DD (drunk driving car that volunteers every weekend to pick military people up from bars so they don't have to drive) and they had some extra room so we didn't have to hike all the way up the hill. That ring I bought is my new lucky charm.

- Posted from my iPhone.

Nobody Loves Me Everybody Hates Me Guess I'll Eat Some Worms... Or a Taco

So, I think it's official that nothing is gonna happen with me and that guy, especially seein as how he hasn't said more than two words to me all week. Our same group just went to a movie and while the other two were all huggy kissy he hardly even looked at me and didn't talk to me at all. I feel slightly put out. At least I got free cab fare and due to a slight mix up at the restaraunt free dinner. Still, it makes me wonder if I'm really that unappealing or if he's just exceptionally obtuse. If the government really shuts down like they say it might I'll not only be broke but so will every guy here. So much for anyone buying me dinner then. I've decided that all the guys here are idiots despite their test scores and I'm never gonna find a boyfriend because anyone good enough for me probably did the smart thing and inherrited a ton of money and bought a castle in britian somewhere so I'll never have the chance to meet him. Which is really too bad when you think about it, who could possibly be happy living in a fancy castle all by their lonesome without me. It's probably for the best though, I hear castles tend to be drafty.

- Posted from my iPhone.

The Beach at Night

Haven't written in Forever, so here's a quick update since a month ago. After I got my wisdom teeth out and started class I basically went from my room to school and back with the occasional stop at the post store in between. Most of my time is spent on homework. I did watch a bunch of movies on netflix last weekend and found some funky online game with flying cats. I past my pt test yesterday morning. This weekend was the first time I've been off post since I was allowed to wear civillian clothes and didn't have a curfew. I wound up going out with this other gal T and a couple guys from my class. We went and saw that new movie Rango, which I thought was funny but maybe not worth ten bucks to see once. More like 99 cent rental. I wound up buying a fleece poncho and after me and Mar went looking for sea lions down on the pier we all went to the beech and built a fire. It took me forever but I finally found some wood that was big enough to burn proper.





Those other two wanted to actually sleep on the beach all night so we made a go of lying on the blanket in the sand untill two thirty in the morning before me and Mar decided to heck with it and walked around looking for a hotel. We stopped at like ten places before we found someplace affordable with a two bed room. It's got a tv but I haven't watched tv since before basic so I just don't care to watch anything. Going to see about breakfast now (and just so nobody freaks out I said separate beds, and just friends.)

- Posted from my iPhone.

Annoyed

So, I haven't written in a while. I'm not sure what exactly I'm allowed to write about stuff going on on post buy I can say that I am extremely annoyed because the receptionist a the civillian dentist gave me the wrong address for my follow up appointment so when I got there I had to come straight back and it was rescheduled to Monday. I'm glad I won't have to go to PT on Monday but I'm worried I may fail my next pt test as I haven't done a pushup in many weeks since I've had my teeth out. I really don't want to have to go to PT at five in the morning. I suppose I should do some pushups in my room for practice.

- Posted from my iPhone.

Goff teeff pulled

Got my wisdom teeth pulled out today. My whole mouth I still totally numb even though it's been six hours. I hope it goes away soon as it's awfully difficult to eat or taste with a numb mouth. I really wish I had some jue's Chinese food right now. Not that I would be able to eat it but it sure would be nice to smell. I get to miss class for the next couple days as well. Yay. I hate English grammar anyway. I was an English literature major. I do not know what a participle is or how it dangles. I had a hard enough time with direct and indirect objects on the test. Lame. Anyway, my cousin sent me some Irn Bru for Christmas so I would like to say thank you, I'll just have to write a card or find him on facebook or something. At least I have some time to read now.

- Posted from my iPhone.

Ice Cream

So, I ha to go to the dentist today. The bad news is I only had one cavity. The other bad news is I have to get my wisdom teeth yanked out on wednesday. Yippie! Also, I spent too much money on a new bed set for my room and got a huge ice cream sundae that will probably rot my teeth even worse. It got a lttle squished in transit but it's still pretty.


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Good News Bad News

So the bad news is that I failed my push-up test today and almost started crying right there on the track field. The good news is that the sergeant gave me a second chance to do the test after everyone else left and I passed. I still need to do a lot more work and have to stay after regular PT tomorrow and go to a Saturday PT but that's all right because I get to phase up tomorrow and that makes it worth it. I guess even though my body was touching the ground my hands were in the wrong spot so my elbows weren't breaking ninety degrees the first time around. I've also been having some trouble accessing my pay stub info online but hopefully I'll be able to straighten it out tomorrow. I get to go to the dentist tomorrow too. I really hope I'll be able to walk with the other couple people who are going because I know I will get so lost by myself and wind up late. I'm going to try getting in a shower tonight before we have to start cleaning (they assigned me the bathroom, yay!).

Emotion

This is my "I wish I was allowed to have an emotion so I could cry my eyes out" post. I just found out I'm not allowed to phase up until I pass that PT test tomorrow. This means that while my roommate and all those people in our group all got to decorate their rooms or half of rooms and go of base and wear regular clothes and have their phones and iPods on them outside the dorm room I got to sit there in my uniform not going anywhere and eat dinner by myself. Not to mention that every time I try to do eighteen pushups I can never manage to do them. I keep collapsing at ten or twelve or fourteen or having half of them not count cuz I couldn't go low enough. G keeps saying not to worry and have more confidence and moping won't help me but life for me pretty much sucks right now and all I really want to do is have that good long thirty minute cry I've been wanting since the first week of BMT when we got told we weren't allowed to have emotions. I can see why this place has so many suicides/suicide attempts, keeping this much emotion bottled up can't be good for a person's mental health. I think that regardless of whether or not I pass the test tomorrow I'm going to set aside some time for a good cry just to get it out of my system. I'd be crying right now but my roommate's here and she'd just tell me not to be a whimp which would be hypocritical as she just had a huge cry yesterday after breaking up with her boyfriend over the phone. Of course this means it must be true what they say, that "If the world didn't suck we'd all fall off". It's nice not to go floating off into space but I feel like a little less gravity might go a long way towards helping me with my pushups. I'll just have to say a prayer for tomorrow and hope for the best. I probably wouldn't have had any fun going to the mall anyway.

- Posted from my iPhone.

Stupid PT Test

I've been catching up on my reading the past few days. I failed my PT test by one push-up and if I don't pass the re-evaluation on Tuesday I might have to take remedial PT classes. (For those who don't know PT stands for physical training and it's basically like gym class only without the games.) The worst part is that our group that came straight from basic wasn't even supposed to take the test that day but because we showed up they said to take it anyway. I could have had a whole nother month to practice for it. I went to the gym yesterday with a girl I met and her two guy friends and she helped me work on my arms. I'm still sore but hopefully it will help me pass the test on Tuesday. I was going to hang out with them again tonight but they never showed up so I came back to the dorms by myself and did forty push-ups and one hundred sit-ups. Now I'm going to bed.

- Posted from my iPhone.

Hot Chocolate

Yesterday was another day off so I didn't do much of anything. I spent most of it sitting in my room by myself trying to get my e-book download to work. It took while but I finally got it and spent the rest of the day reading on my iPad. Today was just a lot of boring pre-class classes. I found out I'm not allowed to take pictures without a special consent letter so my loan follower is just going to have to suffer in ignorance and imagine the beauty of the scenery without the aid of photography. At least it was nice out today weather wise. I got to use that nice engraved coffee cup my folks got me. I put hot chocolate in it. It was good.

Crazy

Just spent the past couple days holed up in my room waiting out the rain and catching up on tv shows I missed. Woke up this morning and it was a beautiful sunny day which means a) it finally stopped raining and b) I might actually leave my room today.I hear there are waffles at the minimall. Also, I finally got that whole mess with my barnes and noble account fixed so I'll have a new book to read on my iPad by the end of the day. I don't know if it will be quite the same as a real book but I'll give it a try. It was actually more expensive than a paperback copy which I thought was a bit of a scam, like sugar free, fat free, low calorie food that costs amore that regular when you actually get less to eat. The whole planet has gone crazy I say, crazy!

I'm Back!

Just so everyone knows, I did not drop off the face of the earth or die or vanish or get abducted by aliens or something. I went to San Antonio Texas for Basic Military Training for the United States Air Force. It was really hard and really miserable and I made it through anyway. Technically I'm not supposed to say anything about it on a public forum though so anyone who actually decides to follow my blog will just have to live in perpetual ignorance or join the Air Force themselves to find out. Meanwhile I'm out here in beautiful Monterey California, if it were ever to stop raining, enjoying my first day off in over two months. I slept in till ten-thirty, washed my own laundry, and just spent more money than I should have downloading cool stuff for my iPad which I probably spent too much money on to begin with. My roommate has been gone for most of the day but I don't mind because it means I get the room and the internet which we are sharing all to myself. So far nobody's yelled at me, except for the once but that was for demonstration purposes only. I want to get some dinner to-go but I really don't want to have to get dressed and leave my nice warm room. It's still raining and I don't want to go outside. I guess I should get used to doing things I don't want to do now that I'm in the military. I just hope that tsunami safety briefing they gave us will prove useless.